……..Let us take a case of somebody who has been possessed before. Now, coming to Sahaja Yoga* his possession goes away. But the memory remains in the brain that he was possessed. And the memory is stronger in a person, left side is stronger, then that memory lingers on, and as soon as that person comes in contact with anyone which has got something to do with the past possession, it clicks. And the whole thing starts coming into you bubbling out and you think you are again possessed. It is the memory which gives you. It’s a myth. It’s the memory that tells you, “Oh, you are again possessed!” Because your left side is weak, means you always live in your memory. Your memory is stronger than your Self. If you could make your Self stronger than your memory, nothing can possess you.
But after you get your Realization, you are not still identified with that state of mind in which you see your ego and super ego as myths. Still you get caught up into your ego and super ego, and that’s why your attention is still in a mess. In a pure simple way of attention in an innocent child, he sees everything in pratyaksha, means in actual experiencing of something, for a child, because he has no memory. So he’ll have to burn his hand to feel that this burns. He has to touch something cold to know that it is cold. His memory is not yet built up. So into the actual experiencing of it he lives, but that actual experiencing becomes memory. And once the memory is built up stronger, the whole personality is affected by memory. All the conditioning of all kinds come through that. Your reading, even the whole atmosphere can come to you. You see, sometimes you smell a particular soap, or say a rose, you smell it. When all the memories of smelling such a rose sometimes comes to you and you may feel really elated sometimes, may be sometimes very unhappy, whatever may be the situation. So you may feel happy or unhappy. Because whatever experiences you have had, has given you a memory.
This memory might have given you a super ego, or might have given you a ego. This scanning might have taken place. If it has been a ego and a super ego, then may be that if it was ego you must have felt happy. If it is satisfying to your ego, you feel very happy. If it is not, if it is super ego, if you are suppressed by this, then you feel very unhappy. So both things like happiness or unhappiness are the states where you are still in the myth. Still the myth exists. You have to still go beyond. So if you feel happy about some situation, you should know you are only happy before Realization because it is giving……….
(Source: An Extract of Talk of H.H.Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi on Attention, Dollis Hill, London 26th May 1980.)
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